Wednesday, April 20, 2011

One week until...

Prom.
Prom is on April 30.
My Junior Prom.
My first Prom.
Oh goodness.
Well I don't even have a dress yet. I'm getting it this weekend. I don't want a long dress, I want a short one, but not super short. A medium length one. I know it should be dressier because it's prom, but I really don't feel like having a long one. I'm young and I long dresses seem too serious right now. The type I want:
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I am the worst shopper ever, so I have a friend coming with me. But I am serious, I can't shop. I'm terrible. Completely terrible. I'm too awkward. I really really am. And I am A OK with that....I think.

Keep on being awkward.
-Faith

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

And then there was friendship.

 I have a new best friend.
I'll tell you how we met...
Ohkay it was just church.
And he kinda thought I was annoying and gave me funny looks. Then on friday a bunch of us were hanging out and I told him that I don't think Justin Bieber is actually that bad, and he says "We are not friends anymore, if you like Justin Bieber." and I said, "WE WERE FRIENDS!!!" because I always thought he did not like me whatsoever, and he said "WERE, not now. Crap." and I said "OHKAY I don't like the Biebs, are we friends now?" and he said, "I don't think so" and then I touched his knee with my finger and said, we are best friends now, and you can't do anything about it cause this knee touch connects us for life." He just sighed. Well it was whatever most of the night, but by the end of the hang out, I had his number.
    Don't even think for a second that I like him more than anything than a friend, because 1. we are friends, not under cover lovers. and 2. He is like three years younger than me, and at my age, that is creepy.
    We had our first best friend fight and it was about him not getting my telepathic message.
It was a stupid fight. He has to pic better things to fight about.
He doesn't have a favorite color and likes pizza. He loves the travel channel and is a friggen beast. By beast I mean he is probably around six feet tall. He likes Harry Potter (which was a requirement) and doesn't like Glee. Likes music but won't sing with me. He's pretty kick ass in my book.
   Now that does not mean (Kait) that I don't love my other best friends, or that they have been put second, it just means that I have a best friend in the new school. My other best friends are soooo great and would not trade them for the world, but when I don't get to see them like ever, it is nice to have someone else to talk to.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

I was ten. I loved horses. I hated homework.

It all started on a Tuesday. I was walking home from school; I lived right down the road from the two-roomed schoolhouse that I attended so it wasn’t a super long walk. I remember walking past the Jones’s house, right side of the road, and thinking how unnaturally clean their yard was. I had seen them multiple times out in their yard picking up sticks. I always thought, “I guess that is what old people do. I definitely do not want to get old.” I kept walking until I saw the Reed’s house. They had a dog named Joker who was so fluffy you could use him as a pillow.
The first thing I noticed about the Reed’s house, wasn’t the house, it was that my mother was walking our new horse, Remington through the Reed’s yard. The second thing I noticed was that my sister was on him. The third was that I wasn’t, and I wanted to be. I ran over and asked, “Can ride him, pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaase?”
“Do you have homework?” asked my mother.
“Yeah,” I said
“Go do your homework, and then come back out.”
“Fiiiine,” I replied.
Well as a child, I always did my homework as fast as I could so I could get it done and go play. That is exactly what I did; I blew through my homework like it was nothing. Not erasing if I messed up, made answers up, and didn’t correct misspelled words. I wanted on that horse.
When I was done I ran outside and to my mom and said, “Done, can I ride him noooow, please, please, please, please? With lots of cherries and chocolate and caramel and nuts and everything else you like on top?”
“But I’m not done!” my sister Leah whined.
“But you’ve been riding him, it’s my turn!”
“You can ride with her, here I’ll put you up there,” my mom interrupted us.
At this point I stuck my tongue out at my sister while she rolled her eyes at me. I was sitting on Remington’s butt with my arms wrapped around my sister’s waist while she was sitting in the saddle. I believe we took two steps when all of the sudden I wasn’t on the horse anymore, I wasn’t even touching anything other than my sister.
Then everything went black.

I was in bed. I needed to go to the bathroom before I peed my pants. But I was so comfortable; I didn’t want to get up.
But I had to.
I really needed to pee.
Ugh.
I got up, but…why was I at my dad’s house?
Oh well, bathroom.
My bladder thanked me so much.
Back to bed.
But why does my back hurt so badly?
Why is my bed so hard?
Is it morning?
I slowly opened my eyes. It wasn’t dark, and I definitely was not in bed. Why were people crowding around me? Wait, Why are the Rittersdwarfs here? Hold on a minute, where am I?
On the ground, I can feel the grass.
What am I doing on the ground?
I was on the horse.
So that must mean I fell off, but where’s Leah? Oh there she is. She’s not on the horse either. Why does everything hurt? Where is Mom?
I heard someone say, “She’s awake!”
“Faith? Don’t move, don’t move okay?” it was my mom, she sounded worried.
“What happened? It hurts.”
“The horse bucked you off, and Leah landed on you. Don’t move I said. The ambulance is on its way.”
I heard some random person in the background say, “ I hear the ambulance; they are getting close.”
I heard them too. I wished they would hurry. I felt my mom by me. I whispered to her, “Mom, I think I peed my pants.”
“Don’t worry, I think I did too,” she whispered back.
That made me feel better, She didn’t even fall off the horse.
“They are here,” someone said.
“Faith hold still I’m going to go get them, kay?”
“Okay.”
I heard them in the background, “She’s over here.”
The first thing they did was put a neck brace on me; it was hard to breathe in.
“Okay, we are going to move you onto a backboard now,” one of the EMT's said.
“Okay,” I mumbled.
They rolled me on my side and set the backboard under me then strapped me in. Then they said, “We are going to lift you to the stretcher okay?"
"Alright," I mumbled.
"Okay lift on three, 1, 2, 3 lift." They wheeled me to the ambulance asking me questions about the day, the president, the year, the month, and I tried to answer them to the best of my ability, but remembering the day of the year was definitely not the first thing on my mind. They let my mom ride in the back with me, which made me feel a lot better, I was scared that everyone was freaking out as much as they were.
Is it really that bad?
Did I break something?
If I broke something, shouldn't I hurt more?
My head hurts enough to be broken.
Where are we?
Are we close to the hospital?
These were all thoughts that raced through my head. It seemed to take absolutely no time to get to the hospital, and I don't even remember them wheeling me inside. I honestly don't even remember any of the tests they ran or the x-rays they took. I remember them telling my mother I was fine, but I was going to be sore the next few days, and my mother thanking God that it wasn't anything worse. She later told me that she was afraid that I broke my back, because after I passed out I curled up into a ball and I guess that is a sign of a broken back. I remember lying in a room waiting to be let out when some neighbors came to say hi. They stayed for a little bit and then left. They finally let my sister and my step dad come back to see me. I had my mom ask my sister to get me some clean clothes because I was not going home in pee pants. Of course, my sister grabbed a bra instead of underwear, and I was never the type to like to go commando, but I also didn't have any other choice.
They let me go that night, and as I walked out of the hospital in no wheelchair, or crutches, and just a little bruised, I thanked God myself for not getting more hurt. I realize, even to this day, that I can't take anything for granted and that I am so lucky I have all of my limbs, my mind, and all of my family.

Just keep learning.
-Faith

Monday, April 11, 2011

"But I abhor the dull routine of existence" -Sherlock Holmes

     The Jersey Shore is crap
     Miley Cyrus can't sing and is a bad example for children
     Justin Bieber sounds like a girl
     They don't make good cartoons like they used to
     All of Taylor Swift's songs are the same.
  All of these things are true whether you like it or not. The people on the Jersey Shore are duck faced orange horn dogs. They have no real talent.
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     Miley Cyrus cannot sing. She can't carry a tune worth crap. It's a fact. She is also a terrible example for little girls. If I were a mother, I would not want my little girl thinking that dancing on a pole, or posing half naked for a magazine, or wear clothes that leave nothing to the imagination is a good thing.
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     Justin Bieber's voice has a higher pitch. Now I'm not saying he doesn't have talent, because he can actually sing, but he could sing and be mistaken for a girl.
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     Cartoons are just not what they used to be. Pokemon is a legend, Tom and Jerry was simple but great, Rugrats was arguably the best of its time. Now we have shows like Fanboy and Chum Chum. What kind of show is that? Ugh it is ridiculous. It's not even funny. I don't understand why they are all so terrible.
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     Every single one of Taylor Swifts songs are the same. They all talk about love and they all sound exactly the same. None of them have variety.
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   These are truths.
Get over it.
So I read this story that this guy wrote and split up into sections and posted to his blog. It was an amazing story about death and murder. It was so in depth and fun to read. It was interesting and well written. It was written by a man on Reddit called Flossdaily. I would definitely suggest it.
http://forum.malazanempire.com/index.php?showtopic=17291
Go to that website and you'll be able to read it.
I want to be able to write like this guy.
Or had his imagination.
I could try.
O.o
I think I'm going to start with a story that actually happened to me and stretch the truth a little bit.
Now that is an idea.
So next post look for a story about....
horses.
Yes.
 Just keep imagining.
-Faith

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Tattoo Obsession

I have been obsessing over tattoos.
I want one
I need one
I don't know why
I don't want one that everyone is getting
and I want it to mean something to me
I don't want someone else to design it
I want to think of it on my own
I have a few ideas
 *NOTE* I did not steal any of these ideas. I thought of them myself. I am not saying they weren't inspired by someone else's tattoo but they are in no way the same thing. And if someone had the same idea as I did then it was an accident and I am truly sorry, but great minds think alike...right?

FIRST
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Since you can barely see it:
It is a raven with the word "Nevermore" on it's wings
Yes Edgar Allen Poe
Yes it's done a lot
But it's an option for me
(It'd be small and I don't know where)

Second:
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It is an infinity sign with "Because some things are for forever"
I was looking at some tattoos and I saw a few that said "Even this will eventually fade"
or something similar to that
Well I thought, not everything has to end
and I thought of the infinity sign
and there ya go
(hip?)

Thirdly:
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That is an anchor with "A ship should not ride on a single anchor, nor life on a single hope"
You can't hope for just one thing in life because there is a chance that it may not happen
You have to be prepared for anything
(upper side)

Fourth:
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I loooove this one
It's a compass that says "Guide Me Home"
I have never had a place that felt like a permanent home
It has always felt like I would have to uproot at anytime and have to get comfortable again
And I guess this reminds me that home is where you make it
(front of my shoulder)

Fifth:
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That is wings with "Take these broken wings and learn to fly"
I would get that on my back I think.
I love the beatles and I love this
We are all a little broken, but we have to suck it up sometimes and get on with our life, we have to learn to live with our problems and to push through them.

Sixth
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A lightening blot with "I don't go looking for trouble, it usually finds me"
I LOVE HARRY POTTER
and this is definitely one of my favorites
Back of neck?

Also there are some sayings that would be amazing to have:
-"By all means, continue destroying my possesions, I daresay I have too many" -Albus Dumbledore
- You gotta have Faith" (is going on side of foot)
-"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live" -Albus Dumblerdore
-"If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals" -Sirius Black
-"Wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure" -Luna Lovegood

OH I want spiderman's, batman's, green lantern's, superman's, flash's, and captain america's symbols down my leg.

Do you have tattoos?
What are they?
Where are they?
What does it mean to you?
Can I see a picture?
Please

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NOT MINE
I found it and looove it.
Credit to whosever it is.



Keep on jumping
-Faith

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

"I didn't make it through the third grade for nothin'."

 Hahahahhahaha that was on the Rescuers Down Under. Great right? I love how in little kids movies they put jokes that only adults would get so kid movies aren't just enjoyable for kids.
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   So it's obvious of the amount of nothing I have to do is enormous. Yeah I need a car.

And a life


And Motivation.


You know what I've been thinking about?
That a person never really knows everything about themselves.
Why is it so much easier for a person who is not yourself to point things out about you?
I mean you are supposed to know everything about yourself right?
You live with yourself your whole life and still there are things you don't know about yourself.
People tell me that I talk too loudly.
In my head it's all the same volume.
Honestly.
How is that fair?
Why can't I look at myself and just automatically know what is messed up and know how, or have the tools to fix it?
Why does somebody have to tell me that what I'm doing is wrong?
Why should I have to go through the embarrassment of the whole realization that something is wrong and everyone judging you for it?
Like I had been saying pamphlet like pamplet all of my life and I had no idea until my government teacher laughed at me because I was saying it wrong!
SIXTEEN YEARS.
That's just cruel.
And why can't you look in a mirror and know whether you are what society dubs pretty?
A person could go through their whole life thinking they are pretty and then society comes out of nowhere and smacks them in the face with a whole lot of "Your ugly"
I guess all a person can do is do everything with confidence and hope that what you are doing is right, even if it's completely wrong.
In the end it's not going to matter if you said a word wrong, or don't dance right, or sing off key, or like spiderman for too long, or wear tutu's for fun, or if you're obsessed with music and have absolutely no musical talent whatsoever......

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Keep on shining
-Faith

G-raffe

Watch the giraffe
He's cute

www.petitelapgiraffe.com

did you know that giraffes don't make noises they might grunt or snort but the don't make noises like a elephant or dog. That fact saddened me. How can they express themselves?

Oh well they can express themselves through cute-ness





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So maybe they are cuter in theory.....


There is this little farm type zoo thing that is close to my house, and we (my father step mother and brothers) have been there a few times. Well they have this camel who is super friendly and loves being pet and eating hair and licking faces. The first time he did it to me I freaked out (as should anyone) and my family laughed at me and told me to go up to it again so they could get a pictured. (that's how my family is) This camel is kinda freaky.

So I was stumbling and I came across this...

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Not the same camel (and I'm not even sure that thing is a camel) but I found this enjoyable =)



OH remember the whole tattoo thing in the post right below this one? Yeah number four and five
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Just keep winning
-Faith

Monday, April 4, 2011

Side Crane Pose

   So I want to do yoga. Yep that is my new mission, to do yoga at least once a day. Yoga seems like it could keep a person sane when they are in the middle of a mental institution. When I do yoga I could think about my days and think about what I need to do in school or what my goals are, or I could try and not think (good friggen luck with that my brain works faster than Sea Biscuit with his tail on fire) It just seems like a good way to figure out my day. Also it seems fun.
I want to get this good:
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Or this good:
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Cause that would be just kick ass fool. Man I'd feel like a ninja and I could so mess someone up. Do you see the muscles on that girl? She's a beaaast.
But you have to start off somewhere....
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That's where I am.
(NONE OF THESE ARE MY PHOTO'S. ONE IS BY DAVID MARTINEZ AND I DON'T KNOW WHO THE TOP AND BOTTOM ONES ARE FROM BUT I GOT THEM FROM YOGAJOURNAL.COM)
Maybe I'll be the Hermione Granger of yoga. *hopes*crosses fingers*


Probably not


Pretty much everyone at one point or time has wanted a tattoo...right? Well I for one definitely DO. I love the idea of one and I am definitely getting one by the time I'm 20. My only problem is what to get and where to get it. I do not want it showing all the time because I would not want to lose a job over one, but I don't want it so secretive coughbuttcough or anything like that. But I guess I'll deal with those later but I have three options (that I have pictures of) that I want to get.

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or
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or
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I love these and I would put them on my body. I don't ever want to connect these with people though because for one I would never put anything on my body that represents someone else. It's tacky. And two because people are constantly in and out of my life and once I get the tattoo, it's there for life.


Question...
Are longer posts better?
Or short and sweet?

Just keep rocking
-Faith

'Cause that's what everyone wants to see, a gazelle on one foot.'

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 Aren't gazelles so graceful and cute? I think they are. Their horns curve so gracefully and subtly.


   So I was looking at other people's blogs, and the one thing that always made me NOT want to read it was if they had no pictures, and just really long posts about their lives and such, and I'm not trying to be rude, but unless there is something extraordinary about their lives, why would I want to read it? If you are going to talk about your life, then your life has to be more than the average american's. If you are going to talk about your children you better have over five, or have one that has something special about them (a disease or something) I like the blogs that have to-do's or have opinions about different things, or have SOMETHING that makes them stand out against the rest of the thousands of blogs out there. Now I'm not saying that if your blog isn't like this that it won't prosper, and I'm definitely not saying that I am a blog master and I know what's what and I know everything, I'm just saying what makes ME interested.


CCCCCOOOOOOFFFFFFEEEEEEE
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   I love the smell of this stuff. It is so delicious smelling and if I could smell if all the time...I would. The freshly smelling coffee grounds are so amazing. When I inhale the grounds the smell takes me into a whole different state of mind. I think of being awake and being alive and of what makes me happy. I remember when I was younger I wanted to like coffee so badly because I loved the way the grounds smelled. Every time we walked through the store, I had to stop and smell all of the different types of coffee. Even if I didn't like coffee now, I would buy coffee grounds just to smell them.

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   As I grew older, I began to appreciate the taste of coffee a little more. My step father drank it all the time and I remember sitting in the truck on our way to where ever and he always had a small cup of coffee (He was a third shifter). I loved when he had coffee because I just liked to smell it. But when my sister started drinking it, well it had to be good because if me sister thought it was cool, it had to be. So little by little I started drinking coffee. At first it had so much sugar in it that you could barely taste coffee. Then I wouldn't put in SO much sugar, but still a lot, and some creamer. Now I put just enough sugar to make the bitter after taste of coffee go away, but still have the actual taste of coffee. I have never liked the  way the bitter aftertaste sat on my tongue so I do things to get around that. It cracks me up how people get so addicted to coffee that they can't go a half of an hour without getting a new cup. I love coffee, but I don't need to have it.

Keep on singing
-Faith

Friday, April 1, 2011

Spring Break Babbbe

Spring break:
Water
Sun
Beach
Warmth!
   All things you think about when you think of spring break. Too bad I live in Michigan and it's only 40-50 degrees out and I'm always cold in the first place, so it feels extra cold now. This winter has been hardcore. I moved schools at the beginning of the year and the school I am at now has canceled school two days over the limit, and that is a way foreign thing for me. I am so ready for summer, it's incomprehensible. I love warmth and sun and beaches and hot sand against my skin and going underwater and just floating. Those are the best parts of summer...to me anyways.
  So my parents went to Florida this week because my dad had a conference and so my step mom went with him, so today I needed some laundry done so I started doing some. Well I've never done laundry at my father's house because my step mom always did it for me. Well since she wasn't here I was thinking "Okay how hard can this be?" Well for one I put fabric softener in the detergent place, and then I mixed detergent in with it, so I'm probably screwed. I mean I don't know if that's a problem, but it's all my clothes so if I ruin them, it's just mine, not the rest of the family's clothes.
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Paris is my dream
  Just keep dancing
-Faith